Nov 4, 1980 - Oct 25, 2018
Sarah, my only child, died at age 38, October 25, 2018, from the ravages of drug addiction, primarily opioids, fentanyl as well as alcohol and who knows what else, after struggling for about 20+ years. Despite years of therapy, rehabs, 12-step programs and family and friends support, Sarah seemed unable to resist using.
She was a beautiful, very kind, talented person, a “force of nature,” as many have described her. Her career and passion was fine art and she created amazing paintings. She was accepted into the UCLA Fine Arts programs, only 4 of 800 applicants, with a full scholarship, and
received her Master of Fine Arts degree from there. Her work was sponsored by a well respected art gallery, Klowndemann in Los Angeles (you can see photos of her work there), and amazingly, even one month before she died, she was able to have a solo art exhibition there.
Sarah’s other passion was to rescue senior dogs, care for them until they died, and then rescue again. Her heart was huge, people loved her, and the impact of losing her has been devastating for her friends and family.
Words cannot express the loss I feel.
As one of our senators said about his son who suicided on New Years eve, “The loss of my son is so fundamental and elemental to my being that I find it hard to recognize the world I live in.” That’s how I experience the loss of Sarah — the world I inhabit feels totally different now. I have a hollowness inside and a sense of a loss of a piece of my soul, the innermost part of me. I get by, one foot in front of the other, some days are really tough. I get depressed often, and now and then I laugh. I’ve learned that I need to develop a relationship with grief as I believe it will always be with me in myriad forms.
Submitted by Jessica Grahm, Mother
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